Down

just realise I don't seems to have many friends
it's hard to accept the fact

I'm alone most of the time since that incident
I keep to myself in my rented room most of the time
I try hard to find someone to dine with
but most of the time others have their own plan that I can't join in

I lost contact with most of my secondary school friends
even the 3 that were my best

I don't have a friend from my secondary batch that I can talk about my current life
and I also don't have a friend from my uni batch that I can talk about my past
I tried to, but they don't seems to understand
because we all have our own passion
because we are from different background

now that my thesis lab is not progressing smoothly
I hope to have someone by my side that I can consult
what should I do now
what can I do now
but no one is there

sometimes I will still think
why should I still stay here and suffer
why can't I just leave everything behind
there's nothing that is worth for me to stay

nothing


nothing at all...